"I think that I could understand..."

     "Well I got home from UG's apt a little bit ago and then went out and got a real Christmas Tree with my roomie.  Unfortunately I have nothing new to report on the UG front...which means I'm no closer to finding out where this is going although I did have a really weird experience with him this morning.  Since both of us aren't used to sleeping in the same bed we both kept waking up all through the night, it was during one of these times at like 6am that we both woke up and just started to hold each other and just cuddle.  And once again I have no idea why this is such a thing for me, the whole time we were holding each other all I wanted to do was cry because I realized just how much I care for him and how much I would do for him.  In that moment all I wanted was to stay like that forever, to just never let go.  I am kinda thinking that I'm cracking up over this....I have never been like that with a guy before and it really scares me, especially for the fact that I'm not sure what it means.  I have slept in the same bed and cuddled up with him before and never had this happen, with him nor with any other guy.  Although in the morning I knew that I had things that had to get done today so I couldn't spend all day in bed with him.  So when I said that I had to get going, he seemed really bummed and tried to keep me in bed with him.  Plus I'll see him tomorrow night at yet another Underwear Party.